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Can't cry in peace.
I talk on in the living room.
I can't cry.
I'm sharing my troubles with someone I can, over the phone.
I can't cry.
I sleep with my sister.
I can't cry.
I've things to do.
I can't afford to cry.
B, if you happen to see this.
Please don't get affected or whatever not,
cos this will alr something very long ago.
I don't like the feeling to get replaced.
You know, it's when you feel that you've this special bonding with this person,
And somehow, things just change and you're replaced.
When you feel that you got replaced,
will you still go back to that person who have got you replaced?
Will you still do what you used to with that special person?
I don't know about anyone else, but at least for me I won't.
It's practically 把热脸贴上冷屁股.
It's not the first time this feeling occurred in me.
But other times, I chose to keep it to myself,
And things went their way and I accept that I can't change it.
Now, I'm told to share and it makes things worse.
Bcos I believe no one will exactly the same as another.
And bcos you don't feel how I do, you can't understand.
And while explaining over and over again,
It'll only make the wound fresher.
I wish to share it with you. It'll feel better.
But can I do it when I can? I couldn't even speak properly.
And you constantly remind me I'm a burden to you.
You're constantly making me feel guilty.
Things really crop up and I really can't help.
If given a choice, I wOn't want to mess up your plans too.
I don't know how to plan our outings, not because I'm lazy.
I really have no idea where to go.
I want you to enjoy every outing you have with me,
And I'm really fine with anywhere, so I feel that w/ you planning,
You'll get to go places you want.
You knew I'm the type who can stay at home and rot.
And doesn't that tell you that I have no idea where to go?
If I knew, I won't want to grow mushrooms.
I'm happy my boyfriend's making me get out of my comfort zone.
Butt can you help me out, I don't think I can do it on my own.
You may be pekcek, but it hurts worse than everything else, when you become harsh on me.
Or at least when I think you are ];
