WEIXUAN(:

Hurhur ):

2012-01-03T23:37:00.004+08:00

I feel so vulnerable whenever after our whatever shitsxz,
I feel like crying. Always made me feel like I can't do anything.
It's not like I want to make you 心软 when you see me cry.
I wanna be strong! But I guess the tears are too heavy.
I feel like a retard talking to myself on a blog
but I can't tell you, I'll only end up crying.
I can't keep it to myself, I'm dying inside.
Do I really have that much flaws?
Why are always unhappy with me?

I love you the way I want, not the way you want.

You love me the way you want, not the way I want.

If you really do love me itfp.

2011-09-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Feeling so bad
Feeling so sad
But I can't do a tad.

AmTeeDoubleYou -.-

2011-08-19T12:52:00.002+08:00

No one will know what the other thinks.

The useless feeling

2011-08-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

I fail at consoling.

I don't know what to do.

I fell useless.

I am useless );

);

2011-07-25T00:36:00.003+08:00

B, you know what actually I still mind about you being very close to Yunting. I FEEL INFERIOR TO HER. It's like everytime after you meet her, you'll be talking about her. I feel like she takes up more of your mind then I do. Maybe I take up more space in your heart, but now that she's your sister, I feel you care for her more. She being your sister make me feel worse because SHE IS YOUR SISTER and it naturally means to you that being close to her means nothing big deal. But everything is possible, siblings can become a couple, why not a pair siblings that are only actually closer friends? It's not that I don't believe you. I don't believe myself. I don't believe I can keep your heart better than she can. I feel inferior, you think she's prettier, you think she's sexy, you think she's cute. What am I that she's not. I feel that she's better and that makes me feel that you'll go for the better. That's why I feel very insecure when you and her are close. And the worse thing is I don't know what can anyone do to make things better );
And you keep telling me that Ting's very vulnerable, you think she cannot get hurt. Then who spared me a thought. Though I'm strong, or whatever not, I still do get hurt. I still break down. Are you expecting me to solve it for her? I know somehow why Peng is like that. But I don't know how to solve it because I'm one of 'Yunting's victim'. I will try to talk to Peng when I found a way to convince myself that what Yumting is doing is right.
I dress up because I respect you. I don't want people to say that you've a sloppy girlfriend. I want you to be proud of me. I don't mean that you don't respect me or what not, it's just that we've different thinking. I mind what people think or say very much. I lack of a lot of confidence and security. I've been trying to 'tone down' in dressing, but that's just my style. I don't know how to change more than that. You know what? I feel that you've been changing me a lot. You expect me to actually. But I can't feel much about you changing for me. Maybe because you hide it from me :)
I'm sorry if this make you feel that I'm asking you to fo something. But I'm not. I just have to tell you before I really cannot take it any longer. I feel you should know. I'm so sorry I'm not perfect. I can only do the best to accommodate you, your thinking and everything. I'm sorry.

You're the one.

2011-07-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

I've found the ones who are worth all my tears.
I'm not cold blooded, I'm not a saint.
I'm human, I feel, I cry.
All I need to know is find the ones who are worth my tears.

Though these few months, there've been many kinks in our sail twogether,
But because we are together, we'll pull it through.
I'm sorry for my mistakes and I'm make an effort to make things better.

Since these months, I've always thought I've lost my friends.
But I was wrong, they're there for me.
It's me who didn't go up to them.
Sorry friends for doubting, and thanks for being with me <3

Weixuan will be strong!

Can't cry in peace.

2011-07-05T00:47:00.004+08:00

I talk on in the living room.
I can't cry.
I'm sharing my troubles with someone I can, over the phone.
I can't cry.
I sleep with my sister.
I can't cry.
I've things to do.
I can't afford to cry.

B, if you happen to see this.
Please don't get affected or whatever not,
cos this will alr something very long ago.

I don't like the feeling to get replaced.
You know, it's when you feel that you've this special bonding with this person,
And somehow, things just change and you're replaced.
When you feel that you got replaced,
will you still go back to that person who have got you replaced?
Will you still do what you used to with that special person?
I don't know about anyone else, but at least for me I won't.
It's practically 把热脸贴上冷屁股.
It's not the first time this feeling occurred in me.
But other times, I chose to keep it to myself,
And things went their way and I accept that I can't change it.
Now, I'm told to share and it makes things worse.
Bcos I believe no one will exactly the same as another.
And bcos you don't feel how I do, you can't understand.
And while explaining over and over again,
It'll only make the wound fresher.
I wish to share it with you. It'll feel better.
But can I do it when I can? I couldn't even speak properly.

And you constantly remind me I'm a burden to you.
You're constantly making me feel guilty.
Things really crop up and I really can't help.
If given a choice, I wOn't want to mess up your plans too.
I don't know how to plan our outings, not because I'm lazy.
I really have no idea where to go.
I want you to enjoy every outing you have with me,
And I'm really fine with anywhere, so I feel that w/ you planning,
You'll get to go places you want.
You knew I'm the type who can stay at home and rot.
And doesn't that tell you that I have no idea where to go?
If I knew, I won't want to grow mushrooms.
I'm happy my boyfriend's making me get out of my comfort zone.
Butt can you help me out, I don't think I can do it on my own.
You may be pekcek, but it hurts worse than everything else, when you become harsh on me.
Or at least when I think you are ];

[:

2011-06-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me

I'm the bad girl.

2011-06-06T00:57:00.001+08:00

I want to.
I don't dare to.
I cannot tell.
I don't know who to tell.
It's different.
That's why.
But thank you.
Really D':

When the fire in your throat, burn your eyes, and nothing flushes it away.

2011-06-03T22:15:00.004+08:00

I feel so miserable.
I just need to let it out.
So here it is.

I just can't stop apologising,
cos it is my fault.
I know it is and I know apologising won't help.
But I can't help.

ZzzzZz

2011-03-31T00:26:00.002+08:00

Actually I also don't what's wrong with me.
Have been quite moody or should I say, moodless? :/
After every reply I feel like crying :/
Weixuan! Are you crazy? D;

Missssssssssss D;

2011-03-28T01:14:00.002+08:00

Hi blog! It's been a long time :D
I miss clique all over again!
I got the urge to tell them one by one in fb,
but haha, don't want la! Shyshy :/
I miss every single thing D;
Butttt there's nothing I can do!
They've to go to school, study
and spend time with their new friends ;D
Soh Weixuan must learn to face changes ;D

~~That burning flame down in my throat~~

雨过天晴 :/

2011-03-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

Hieyy ;D
I wanted to blog about work ;D
So here it is!
Work @Creative fair was fun.
I'd to so called explain things to customers
and make them buy our package.
We're actually selling products/ software,
to let children master in Chinese while playing ;D
Working is fun because colleagues are fun people.
We get along with each other quite well, I think.
For all the 3 days, I've been working at different parts though.
First at FlipAlbum, second at Booth 2, third at Wireless area.
Wireless is also B's section so yup, got to work with him ;D
Tomorrow's work again!
Think I'll be quite lost cos I haven't been there for the last 4 days ;D

Went out with clique on the Tuesday w/o Joanna.
We were at ECP but it rained the whole afternoon.
So we only got to cycle at 5 plus ;D
Cycled to Bedok Jetty with Peng and Yan. It was fun.
I enjoyed that ride though I fell down. Hahahahahah! :/
I cycled through slopes too!
I was alwaysssss afraid of slopes ;D
Went back Bishan to have dinner then :D

It was China Fieldtrip Gathering yesterday,
And it didn't go well at first :/
Because from 1X people became 5 of us at K.
Was :S actually :/
Went to wait for the others at amk hub.
B and I went to pick Yunting and people up at serangoon.
Again, sorry B for making you waste unnecessary travel fares D;
Ate at Chompchomp then.

Went to Amk again today.
Met up with Ms Tan ;D
Timthy, Yan, Jiahui, Peng, Kaishan and I were there ;D
I enjoyed luh. Talk talk and eat eat ;D
Though, we were very full after that.
Love March Hols ;D
Hope clique will still get to meet up again!
Maybe during June Hols ba ;D

So sad you lose the blogging feel

2011-03-16T23:49:00.001+08:00

I'll blog another day.

It don't feel good.

2011-03-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

Everything was upside down since I woke up.
Woke up very late and everywhere ached.
And everyone's asking if I can make it for outing
when I don't even know when I'm free bcos of clique outing.
It's not that I want to blame or anything.
But I just think that things are very disorganised.
So I didn't reply everyone until like just now.
When clique outing was confirmed, reconfirmed and rereconfirmed.
I'm so sorry to make people arrange things, cancelled it and rearrange.
Seriously, there's nothing I can do other than saying sorry.
I feel useless.

2011-03-10T20:47:00.001+08:00

So now, my lovely hair is dyed.
Though the colour is not very obvious,
but I like it ;D It's just how I want it to be.
Bad thing is my hair smells like diluted ammonia :3

Andand, I'll be working tomorrow!
Ehhh, can't wait.
Really really hope there'll be a lot of people!
Don't all run to IT Fair la ho :/

Can't wait for March Holidays,
though I'm not studying now either.
But March Hols means outing with clique.
Means outing with China Fieldtrip mates.
Hope clique will have a day free for outing ;D

Anywayszx, here are the photos I wanted to post ;D

The little box house for the my new bed mate ;D

Mr. B Bear ;D

So handsome :D

And know what!
My family's new tv is spoilt again!
There's some problem with my house's fengshui.
Lol, rubbish :/ Gonna get them change one for us ;D

Our pre- tenth month.

2011-03-09T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hohoho!
So I went for product training early in the morning.
There were a lot of workers! At least 100, I swear.
Think they're gonna expect crowd.
Hopefully so luh! Don't want to stand there and stone.
Hmm, colleague-to-be don't believe I'm only 17.
She thinks I'm older :/
People there are quite nice!
This guy helped me to write my timelist
and give it to my I/C to sign ;D

Went IMM with B after that.
Sidetrack a bit: B's not in the same section as me.
Bought my hair dye ;D
Went Vivo after that
and that crazy B brought me to build a bear :D
B took The Bear Promise:
Her Bear is special
I brought it to life
I chose it
I stuffed it
Now we are taking it home
Best friends are forever
So I promise right now
To make B Bear
My No. 2 Pal
Something like that ;D
The person who attended to us was named SinYee
And she improvised the pledge ;D

Welllllll, went B's 老地方.
Very peaceful ;D
Yay ;D

Weixuan! Next time when you ttm,
think back about today! ;D
I'll upload some pictures tomorrowwww ;D

My long and lovely hair.

2011-03-09T00:44:00.002+08:00

Just to add that ...
I think my long hair is sexy. Hahaha, serious!
I realised that while I was at gym.
Anywayszxszx, since I'm gonna work on friday,
I'm dying my hair this Thursday! ;D
Hope it turns out nice ;D
Okayokay, goodnight!

We'll run through it together.

2011-03-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Supposed to wake up early with sissy
and go to the gym today.
But sissy was too tired
and I end up going back to sleep :/
So I woke up only around 11 plus 12 :3

Went out with Mama for lunch
and she spent an hour inside ntuc!
Omg, can't stand that :/
Went gym in the evening with sissy then ;D
My life's so uninteresting right ;/

Gonna have product training tomorrow.
And it's conducted at 930 at Jurong D;
So I gotta wake up damn early.
I'm supposed to sleep early!
But relatives are at my house D;

Satisfied ;D

2011-03-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

Hello blog!
So I really did bake the cookies today.
Turned out ... quite okay.
Some of the batches were burnt.
So I must 联络感情 with my oven more ;D
And cos I went to buy the ingredient on my own,
I had to carry a basket myself (quite a lot to buy!)
and I felt so different! Hahah,
like Auntie out in the market ;/
I think the cookies are a little too rich and huge,
so one is filling enough!
But still, quite nice. (Even the burnt ones :/)

Andand the tv was really delivered here today,
I'm a lucky girl, I think ;D

Realised 小小彬 gonna turn up for the upcoming charity show.
Heard from Mum that he's gonna sing and dance.
I'm sure he's gonna be damn cute.
But that day, I'm gonna work,
sooo have to watched taped one D;

Anywayszxszx, I think I'll be dying my hair on Friday!
Hope it'll be nice ;D
Okay, till here! ;D
Byebyesxzsxzs!

Can't wait for tomorrow.

2011-03-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

Hello!
Did I say that my tv spoilt?
Everything is still working except the screen.
So this morning, after I went to gym,
I heard the tv noise.
I thought it's working alr!
But actually, Mum was only listening to the tv!
So damn weird eh ;D

Anywayszxszx, as I said, I went to the gym today.
It's the first time there actually.
Don't think it's good, not a lot equipments.
But well, okay enough ;D
Going there with sissy this Tuesday.
Don't know if she's gonna exercise.
Cos she said her main motive is to see baby swim!

I'm so going to bake tomorrow!
Chocolate chip Oreo cookie sandwich.
Sounds nice right? Looks nice too!
Since the tv is spoilt, I've to find things for myself to do ;D
Dad said the new tv will be coming tomorrow,
so just hope that it will come.
If not I'll keep baking and spending! :/

Okayokay, byebye blog ;D

扭转乾坤, lol.

2011-03-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

Papa made my day seriously!
He thanked me for the card I made :D
Never regret waking up early to make the card.
He make me realise it was all worth it ;D
Love Papa!

Anyway, I think the 'party' was successful.
Though didn't go for bowling as planned,
singing @PartyWorld wasn't a bad idea ;D
While wishing Papa all the best during NS and all,
he seemed to be near to tears. [:
and Timo and Yan was so sweet.
Make me so envious, haha :/

Though, I can feel the growing distance.
Between myself and my classmatesss luh.
Whatever, life still has to go on!

Bye blog!

2011-03-05T14:46:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne- Why
Why do you always do this to me?
Why couldn't you just see right through me?
How come you act like this, like you just don't care at all?
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?

I can feel, I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why?

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you more and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you, tell me

Are you and me still together? Tell me
You think we can last forever? Tell me why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play a different game than what we're playin'
Try to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?

I can feel, I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why?

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you more and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you, tell me

Are you and me still together? Tell me
You think we can last forever? Tell me why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go and dream about whatever you need to dream about
Come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel

I can feel, I can feel you near me
Even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why?

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you more and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you, tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you more and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you, tell me

Are you and me still together? Tell me
You think we can last forever? Tell me why

Heard this song again and it's still as lovely.
So I'm here just to share ;D

We're in it two-gether.

2011-03-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

Went down Creative today.
And my stupid brain only realised
thatI forgot to bring all the documents
when I boarded the train.
So I went all the way back to Bishan and get them.
Ended being a little late for the signing of papers.
Haven't got much details about the job yet
but will know more on the 9th which is our training.
I want to work soon!

Realised Papa's pre-NS thingy is tomorrow instead of the 12th!
So I'll be able to go! Yay!
Thing is I haven't made him a card I actually wanted,
so I've to wake up early tomorrow ;D
planned to go to B's house tomorrow actually,
but his Mum's gonna spring clean in the morning,
and both of us have things on in the evening.
So we're left with not much time to bake.
So I think prolly won't be able to go ]:
I'm like fated to not go his house.
Everytime also got something 'crop up'.

Anyway, I hope tomorrow would be fun
and B will cycle there safely ;D

2011-03-03T21:44:00.003+08:00

Saw this on tumblr:
If I ignore you, don't ignore me back,
try and get my attention.
If I brush away your hand as you try yo hold it,
grab it and let me know you really care,
don't just give up.
If I seem like I'm doubtiong you and us,
reassure me that this is just one out of a million obstacles
we're going through in this relationship.
Don't act all depressed and beat youself up about it.
If you get the feeling that I want to leave you,
don't just sit back and watch me.
Don't say, " Leave me if you want to."
Fight for me.
Tell me how much you want me to stay.
I'm just a girl,
and I need to feel needed sometimes.

I was like wow, so demanding.
But it's very true, at least for me ;/

Anywayszxszx, went Vivo with B today.
Watched Gnomeo and Juliet. Nice and cute ;D
Andand I got a job @Creative Warehouse Sales.
Only working on Friday to Sunday
for 2weeks starting from 11th.
And that would mean I'd have to miss Papa's pre-NS celeb.
And maybe even Clique outing D;
Was msging Timthy a while ago.
We miss school :/
Think he's going through what I did when I first went in YT.
I hated YT so much,
just like how he don't like his new school.
But luckily for both of us,
I've a few close friends with me,
while he has his girlf nearby :D
May he make manymany new friends
and start to at least like his new school!
Best Wishes!

Bye bloggg,
XOXOs ;D

Listen to me, please.

2011-03-03T00:53:00.003+08:00

And yup, went back for check up again.
Told the nurse I've to retake the urine test.
So she passed me the cup.
When I returned it to her, she asked me to wait.
And mum reminded me that I've yo take a queue no.
So I went back to ask for one
but the nurse say, " Ah girl I ask you to wait"
As I explained to her, that I need a queue no.
Cos the doctor haven't checked my body yet,
she told me, I know I know I know, wait waIT WAIT! -.-
a while later, she cane back and tell me,
"Okay girl, everything is okay, we'll send there for you, byebye"
and I tried explaining myself again, but she said,
"Nono, doctor sign alr, he say very good, you can go"
So I left, thinking girls don't have to check
cos the doc did check on B yesterday.
Few minutes later, the nurse came chasing out,
"Girl ah girl, the doc haven't check ah? Come in come in"
Mum and I was like !!! That was what I had always been trying to tell you!
So all in total, I took about 2 hours today to do a simple checkup
which only took the doc less than 5 minutes to check on me!
P.s. I had to pay additional 5plus dollars for a urine test!

Anywayszxszx, I was help sissy with her math just now.
And it was so interesting, I can't resist the temptation to try the questions ;D
My brain is rusty alr D;
Poly! Please start soon to let me use my brain!
Can't wait to have piles of homework!
I'm psychotic :/ hahahahah!

Andandand, I'm so tempted to get an Orange Nokia E7
it's so chio and it has widgets! And yellow smiley too!
Butttt, my plan hasn't ended and I don't usually request things from Dad.
I'll feel paiseh. I don't know why :/
Haiyaaaa, how ah? It's so chio lei!
Orange colour eh! D;

Goodnight ;D

2011-03-01T18:57:00.003+08:00

As I was sayingggg, I wanted to post about work @NATAS.
So here it is :D
We worked under Chan Brothers actually.
And so coincidentally, I was attached to China :D
as runners, we're supposed to do the following things:
• raise no. cards to notify queue manager about vacant counters
• answer simple questions from random customers.
• try to ask people to go to China
• give out Chan Brothers flyers ;D
Something like that.
But sweetheart and me would usually bring up no. cards
Which was equals to not sitting.
12 hours++ of standing was really a torture.
The only time I could sit was during liunch and dinner.
And they're only 15~20 mins each.
But I tried to 偷懒 in the toilet but it was too smelly :/
All I was waiting for is 9.30 to come :D

The colleagues there are quite fun to work with though ;D
One word: Friendly ;D
But some agents are so friendly I'll feel bad to see their counter vacant.
And there were these two colleagues, they love to scare me.
Without fail, I'll jerk evertytime they scare me :/
This WeeSean guy asked me to add him on fb,
but I can't find him. Though I've his no., I don't dare to text him!
There were two other China runners attached to China too.
And when we were chatting, got to know that their pay is $5/hr.
I think it's so not fair cos they're,
frankly speaking, more hardworking than us.
But we get $6/hr.
They're so hardworking, when he chatted with me,
he said, "Ahyo, 我真不应该偷懒呀!"
And when he knew that I just finished O level,
he asked which course did I choose to go.
And when I told him Biotech, he didn't know what was it.
So I told him, "Ehh, 物理."
and he said he want to ask me questions about it.
Buttt, luckily he didn't ask
cos I suddenly remember bio is 生物! :/

Overall, it's fun luh. But so tiring :/
My back hurts like nobody's business :/
Once I sneeze is like omg, die!
So that's all for NATAS ;D

Went for medical checkup these 2 days.
Monday was because there were too many people,
so I didn't manage to check.
Today, there was blood in my urine,
so I've to go back again tomorrow! :[

Okayokay! Very lor sor today. Bye bloggg ;D
Oh wait! I took a passport photo,
and it's the first one that I like ;D
Okayokay, byeeee!

Leaving the best to the last.

2011-02-28T00:49:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired now
but still want to post about work!
So this is definitely going to make me remember:
• Post about work @NATAS
• Bring cake for B!

Work tomorowwwwwwwww.

2011-02-26T00:02:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna work at Natas Fair Tomorrow.
Have to reach at 8.30 >.<
Working with Sweetheart and Yiqian.
It's like sistars184 gathering la.
Just that Rachel's not around.
Actually it's quite saddening
cos we used to promise each other
to meet up every year on our anniversary at least
but it never happenned :/
Anyway, hope working would be fun
and I'll be able to pull through.
It's been anlong since I last went out for so long ;D

Goodluck, Weixuan!

My medicine as your poison.

2011-02-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

Remember that, I'll always try to be there.

2011-02-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

So yup, I rebonded my hair.
No more curlywurlys, but it's so flat :/
And because of that, I'm not going anywhere except J8 tomorrow

And yupyup, gonna meet Pengpeng,
to get the vouchers and buy her shoes.
Been quite a long time since the last time
when there were only Peng and I :D
Not that I don't like Clique outings with all the 11 of us,
but time spent with a smaller group gives more quality time.
If you've a huge clique, you'll know :D

2011-02-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hi blog
Just to say byebye to my curlywurlys
Gonna rebond my hair tomorrow
Soo, Bye curlywurlys!

P.s The kuku headache is killing me &.£

2011-02-21T00:59:00.003+08:00

I made chocolates today. Yay!
Looks delicious but yup, just trying out ;D
Haven't use moulds to make chocolates before.

Anywayszxszx, I saw this research today.
Nagging doesn't work.
I thinks it's so true luh.
The article said something like ..
The more one nag, the more the other avoids
or withdraws both emotionally or physically.
This is because he/ she might get resentful or defensive.
It is disrespectful and often percieved as critiscism,
hence words said are easily tuned out and is never effective.
It may make one feel personally attacked or feel inadequate.

“People have a way of becoming what you encourage them to be,
not what you nag them to be.”
So yup, you and I shall quit nagging at people/ yourself,
start encouraging ;D

So angry tears dropped.

2011-02-19T01:23:00.001+08:00

I believe the basic courtesy was to say sorry.
You didn't fucking speak a word of it being broken,
left it there and meddled with your fucking things.
And you're preparing to go to sleep with it lying in the toilet,
all shattered and broken.
If it was just something I could get again
even something that worth a lot money,
I won't fucking give a shit.
It's a special gift from a very special friend.
I'm so sorry Yokeleng.
I know you will never ever see this.
But seriously I don't know any where else
that I could pour out what I want to tell you.
I'm so sorry I let it broke.
I swear I'm proud whenever wear it.
It showed me you thought of me when you were in China.
And I know I will never get any gift like this from you anymore
because we've alr drifted apart.
Though many promises were made to meet up more
or even just to talk to each other more,
it never happened.
I'm so sorry.

New skin for youuuuuu :D

2011-02-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO! I'm done with my new blogskinnnn :D

2011-02-18T01:59:00.003+08:00

I'm so going to change my blogskin!
I'm sooooo going to make my own blogskin!
I'm sooooooo not going to let it be half done!
These are soooo not going to be just say ;D

Blog, are you excited for your new clothing?
Heeeheee! I'm going to make you a new clothing!
Love you bloggggg ;D

I know I sound a little mad :/

2011-02-16T00:56:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I feel so bad saying so many 'sorry's
knowing it don't really help.
Weixuan, can't you try to do something
that might help a little?

2011-02-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hi blogggg!
I was so lazy to blog these few days! Sorry!

Anywayszxszx, I celebrated Valentine's with B yesterday.
It's the very first time I'm celebrating it with a boyfriend.
Though I enjoyed myself much at the movie, sitting by the beach and at flyer,
I still miss the times I celebrate with my lovely friends.
It's not exactly the day that's memorable,
but the time I took to prepare the gifts for them ;D
Never regret giving them those ;D
Gave B a puzzle that has some msg in it.
He fixed it once he finished bathing ;D
Quite happy actually, tells me he do care about the gift.
Andand he said he liked it ;D
Hope he's not just being courteous ;D

When I was at fairprice with family today,
I saw this gingerbread man cookie premix
And it contains cookie cutter and colourful beans.
Bought it and I'm gonna bake it tomorrow! Yay! ;D

2011-02-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Why is it twisting and turning and burning?
The feeling suckkkkkk :/

2011-02-12T11:31:00.002+08:00

Dinner with Clique yesterday ;D
I really miss the times with them.

I miss recess with all of them.
I miss recess when we can't find enough seats
to accomodate all of us because there are 11 of us.
I miss recess when we start to wish
all the ones who have alr eaten would give up their seats.
I miss recess when we don't know what to eat.
I miss recess when we wait for each other
and say '123' before we all eat together.
I also miss the times we hang around each others' table
during lunch just to talk about anything under the Sun.
I miss the times we rush each other
because we're taking too long while packing bags.
Especially Yunting!

I miss staying back with KimPeng and Zhiyan to study.
Though half the time we're talking/ having fun,
at least it's better than studying alone at home!
I miss night studies with Kimpeng, Zhiyan, Amelia, Yunjing, Yixiang, Jiayue and Joan.
I miss the times we comment on the packed dinner provided
and the 'Stress' game we play during 'breaks' we give ourselves.

Whatever. Weixuan you need to learn and accept changes!

2011-02-07T01:12:00.003+08:00

Chuc Mung Nam Moi! :D
(Happy New Year!)
Vietnam trip was totally disappointing.
I know I shouldn't be so bad and blame it on Uncle Cai
But I really feel very cheated luh.
He told us that Vietnamnese don't celebrate CNY
But actually they treat as an even bigger event then us!

Neverminddddddd D;
Though didn't get to go to their attractions nor shop,
while talking to Uncle Cai's wife('s brother),
we got to know some of their practices luh.
Instead of all the different different fruits
we use to pay respects to the gods during CNY,
they use watermelon.
And instead of orange/ apple/ pear during normal prayings,
they use coconut ant jasmine flower.
And many more luhh ;D

There was a handsome guy outside the hotel too!
He sells drinks, ciggarette and poker cards at night there.
Everytime I go back to the hotel,
I'll peep at him first, hahahahah!
Sounds crazy :/
But Dad said he kanasai :0
Dad purposely went to buy poker cards from him,
just to take a look at him. Cute Dad! <3

Anywayzxszxs, I'm gonna sleep now.
Bye blooooooogggg ;D

2011-02-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year peopooooo!
Heheh, had reunion dinner just now :D
Played cards for a while too.
The usual CNY eve though.
But this year's CNY will be much different for me.
Cos gonna spend it with family at Vietnam.
Hope it's gonna be fun [;
Hope there won't be any flight delays
Hope the flight won't be too bad.
First time taking budget airline,
and I'm quite excited actually :D
Same usual thing:
Hope I won't make him sneeze too much :D

Bye bloooog, have a happy CNY ;D

2011-02-02T00:28:00.003+08:00

Hieyeehieyeehieyeeyooo!
Went to cycle at ECP with B today ;D
No doubt, I forgotten how to cycle :/
After quite soooome time then started to cycle' wobbily'.
I want to cycle again!
I want to go to the beach with clique!
I remember saying that last year lo,
but we didn't get to go D;
I miss clique, like seriously.
But well, they're busy with school, I guess.
Hope we'll get to meet up on the 11th!

Anywayzxzszx! 99 more days to a year!
Awwwww, don't jealous. Hahaha :D
Hopes everything will be fine everyday ;D
I sort of believe you're the one God created just for me :B

School better start soon for me!
I can't wait to study, I can't wait to do homework.
Sounds sick, I know :/
But I'm sure I'll complain about school when I it starts :/
I can't wait to make new friendssSS,
but I'm afraid they'll find me too unfriendly! :/

BUT, I shall get myself a job first!
Shall look for one after CNY!
Weixuan! Don't be lazy! Hohoho :D

Ciu soon, blog :D

2011-01-25T06:15:00.001+08:00

I THINK THIS IS DAMN TRUE! ;D

What does Success mean to an ISTP?

People with the ISTP personality type are action-oriented thinkers. They are highly tuned into their immediate environment, and driven to interact with it in a hands-on fashion. It is by working with things in their environment that they experience and understand life. By working physically with their environment, they have a natural and immediate understanding of how things work, and how best to achieve their identified goals. Although they constantly use logic to determine how to best manipulate objects in their immediate situation, they are not naturally analytical in a more objective sense. When they step back to methodically analyze the relationship between objects in their world, they often lose touch with their understanding. Their understanding is intimately tied into their physical experience with reality. It is immediate and wholistic. They are naturally "in-sync" with the physical world, and value life largely in terms of their ability to flow with and conquer the physical challenges presented to them. Although they think about and value past experiences, they live almost entirely in the here and now. ISTPs are natural mechanics, athletes, musicians, technicians, and engineers. They excel at tasks that require a great deal of tactile mastery, as well as quick, logic-based action. ISTPs are most comfortable using their known skills, rather than being thrown into situations with which they have no personal experience. The nuances of variation in each individual situation will bring a sense of newness and freshness to the experience for the ISTP. ISTPs often resist and rebel situations that are entirely new, or that require a great deal of structured planning and thinking. This way of thinking is foreign to the ISTP, and therefore uncomfortable. When someone tries to push or control the ISTP into these situations, he or she is likely to "walk away" from that person without looking back. Their resistance to structure may cause them to quit school early, quit jobs that they find stifling, or quit relationships that have too many expectations. ISTPs are often likeable and have more friends and social interaction than is normal for an Introvert. The ISTP genuinely enjoys the company of their friends, and needs their input in his or her physical world to maintain their understanding of their own place in the world. An ISTP's feeling of success is dependent primarily upon their mastery of their physical world, but is also dependent upon the existence of strong, reliable, interpersonal relationships. Without these relationships, the ISTP is likely to avoid relationships, isolate him or herself, and feel very vulnerable to rejection and hurt.

Allowing Your ISTP Strengths to Flourish

As an ISTP, you have gifts that are specific to your personality type that aren't natural strengths for other types. By recognizing your special gifts and encouraging their growth and development, you will more readily see your place in the world, and be more content with your role.

Nearly all ISTPs will recognize the following characteristics in themselves. They should embrace and nourish these strengths:

They have a natural ability to focus and "become one" with their immediate environment. This ability allows them to be great athletes, dancers, and musicians. They have an innately graceful connection with the physical world.
They are highly in tune with their physical surroundings, and therefore have well-developed aesthetic appreciation. They appreciate beauty. If they are so inclined, they may develop their ability to control the physical world into some form of art expression, and become artists.
They are exceptional troubleshooters in emergency situations. They can quickly take in the current situation and apply logic immediately to take steps that control the problem. Since the ISTP's use of logic is based on their personal experience, their ability to troubleshoot will get better and better as they gain more experience. For this reason, ISTPs who are mechanics, technicians, and computer analysts (for example) often achieve "guru" status after they have been working in the field for a long time.
They're very sensual and earthy people. They usually a good deal of sex appeal and attractive sensuality.
ISTPs who have developed their Extraverted Sensing to the extent that they regularly take in information in an objective fashion, rather than strictly to support their own way of life, will enjoy these very special gifts:

They have attractive and compelling personalities, and are well-liked and accepted by most people.
They're usually quite intelligent, and can work through difficult problems.
They understand the benefits of close relationships, and understand how to support and enhance these relationships.
They can handle just about any task that they are presented with.
Potential Problem Areas

With any gift of strength, there is an associated weakness. Without "bad", there would be no "good". Without "difficult", there would be no "easy". We value our strengths, but we often curse and ignore our weaknesses. To grow as a person and get what we want out of life, we must not only capitalize upon our strengths, but also face our weaknesses and deal with them. That means taking a hard look at our personality type's potential problem areas.

Most of the weaker characteristics that are found in ISTPs are due to their dominant function of Introverted Thinking overtaking the personality to the point that all of the other functions exist merely to serve the purposes of Introverted Thinking. In such cases, an ISTP may show some or all of the following weaknesses in varying degrees:

The ISTP gets "stuck in a rut" and only does those things that are known and comfortable to the ISTP.
The ISTP resists and rejects anything that doesn't support their own experiential understanding of the world. If there is a conflict between their own way of life and something that they encounter, they don't perceive that "something" in an objective sense. Rather, they reject it to avoid conflict and to preserve the sanctity of their inner world.
They choose to surround themselves with people who support their own way of life, and reject people who think or live differently.
They may become overly paranoid about social organizations and institutions trying to control them.
They may unknowingly or uncaringly hurt people's feelings.
They may be completely unaware of how to express their inner world to others in a meaningful way.
They may be completely unaware of the type of communication that is often desireable and (to some degree) expected in an intimate relationship. If they are aware of the kinds of things that are appropriate to say and do to foster emotional bonding, they may be unable to appreciate the value of such actions. They may feel too vulnerable to express themselves in this fashion, and so reject the entire idea.
If pushed beyond their comfort level to form commitments or emotional bonds, they may reject a relationship entirely.
Under stress, they may show intense emotions that seem disproportionate to the situation.
Explanation of Problems

Nearly all of the problematic characteristics described above can be attributed in various degrees to the common ISTP problem of only taking in information that relates to or supports their own life experience. The ISTP is driven to work with and understand his or her world by applying their special brand of logic (an immediate, spatial, "fuzzy" logic) to their physical experience. They don't necessarily have a goal in mind to achieve from this process - it is the process itself that is rewarding to the ISTP. In their zeal for the satisfaction that comes from mastering their physical environment in such a way, ISTPs often selectively choose to put themselves in situations in which they have the opportunity to exercise these skills. That's certainly not a problem. Most personality types choose to do the things that they're best at most often. Such is the nature of capitalizing upon our strengths. The problem rears its ugly head when the goal of the ISTP becomes to achieve their personal satisfaction at all costs.

It is healthy to choose your paths and goals in life so that they coincide with what you find rewarding, and what you're really good at. However, it sometimes happens that we take this approach a bit too far and sacrifice an accurate and objective understanding of the world for a more narrow vision that is easier and comfortable for us to deal with. The ISTP affects this problem when they stop taking in information in a truly objective sense, and instead only take in information that supports their way of life.

The dominant function of the ISTP is Introverted Thinking. This function is supported closely and importantly by the auxiliary function of Extraverted Sensing. Extraverted Sensing perceives the world and sends information into the psyche, where it is processed by Introverted Thinking. An ISTP who uses their Extraverted Sensing function in a diminished way is one who chooses to restrict their environment to people and places that support their favored activities. In such a way, the ISTP prevents his or her psyche from having to consider data from differing viewpoints and lifestyles, and thus promotes a lifestyle that allows them to frequently exercise and enhance their known tactile skills. It serves their immediate needs, which are the primary focus of the ISTP. However, it also promotes a lifestyle that is essentially self-centered and narrow in focus. It solves short-term problems, and creates long-term ones.

The ISTP's inferior (fourth) function is Extraverted Feeling. This means that the ISTP is not naturally in tune with how other people are feeling, or with social expectations. In fact, the ISTP is likely to reject the importance of social rituals, rules, and expectations. This is a natural weak point for the ISTP, which no doubt causes strife to the ISTP and their love partner. This weakness can be overcome by developing their Extraverted Sensing to the point that they can perceive Feeling type expectations in the external world. They don't have to use Extraverted Feeling to understand how to act in situations. They can perceive the expected behavior from their Extraverted Sensing function. However, if they are restricting their incoming data to only those things that support their existing way of life, then they are not learning from Extraverted Sensing at all. They are not growing their understanding of social and intimate behaviors - rather, they are reducing the importance of this type of understanding to their own life. In these situations, ISTPs shy away from very close personal relationships, and feel more vulnerable and less sure of themselves in situations that involve expressing their emotions.

Solutions

To grow as an individual, the ISTP needs to focus on taking in as much information as possible through Extraverted Sensing. He or she needs to allow themself to get into situations that they aren't necessarily comfortable with, or that are different from the situations that they would normally choose in life. The ISTP learns from experience, so the best way for the ISTP to grow as a person is to open him or herself to new experiences. Be aware of the tendency to want to run out and do something "new" that is actually just a different opportunity to exercise a known skill. Your task, as a person interested in personal growth, is to understand the world in a truly objective fashion, rather than understanding how the world fits in with your way of life.

Living Happily in our World as an ISTP

ISTPs usually have a loyal group of friends that they fit in with and feel comfortable with. The problems that ISTPs have with regards to fitting into our world are not usually related to platonic friendships. Usually, the ISTP has trouble finding and maintaining a love relationship. The ISTP usually has very simple needs and expectations from their mates, and they're surprised and confused to find that their mates have more complex demands. They feel inadequate to meeting their mate's needs, and begin to get very uncomfortable with the situation as they perceive that they are expected to do something that it unknown to them. They back away from the relationship. Outside of a relationship, they feel more unloved and unappreciated, but are afraid to commit to a relationship because they fear rejection and hurt.

Specific suggestions:

Don't expect yourself to be a master at the "touchy-feely" game. Be yourself, but remember that there is a basic assumption of human decency that must be adhered to in relationships. If you're not sure what that means, take special care to observe how people in "good" committed relationships behave towards each other, so that you can determine where the lines are drawn.
Pair yourself with an Extraverted Thinker (ESTJ or ENTJ) who is less likely to assume that the lack of feedback is the same thing as negative feedback.
Expanding your world and experiences will expand your understanding of human expectations. Try to figure out the personality type of people that you know and encounter in your life.
Don't fear the unknown. You can handle it.
Ten Rules to Live By to Achieve ISTP Success

Feed Your Strengths! Realize your gift at mastering your physical environment, and give yourself plenty of opportunities to exercise your abilities. Ride, play, paint, work it. Much of your sense of well-being will come from these experiences.
Face Your Weaknesses! Face your fear of the unknown, and get yourself into new situations. Experience new activities and people with new perspectives. Don't isolate yourself into a narrow and lonely existence.
Talk About Your Thoughts. Discussing your ideas and perceptions with others will help you to develop your Extraverted Sensing, and thus your understanding of the world. How well you use your auxiliary function is very important to your overall health and happiness.
Don't Be Afraid to Love. That's just your old inferior function trying to convince you that you're unloved and unloveable. It's not true. Just because you're not sure what to do with yourself doesn't mean that you can't learn! Go on... jump in. The water's warm.
Respect Your Need for Action. Understand that you need to be actively working with your environment to be "in the groove" with life. Don't chastise yourself for not being the sort to sit around and read a book or watch a movie. Choose a partner and companions who value active lifestyles.
Recognize Social Principles. Realize that our society functions around some basic social principles, and that our society would fail unless those principles are recognized and upheld. In a democracy, people vote. At a red stoplight, people stop. If people stopped voting because it wasn't important to their own way of life, who would be in power? If people stopped stopping at red stop lights because it didn't fit into their way of life, how could we drive safely? Your priorities and beliefs are important, but you must recognize that the external world's agenda is also important. Don't dismiss the importance of principles that don't affect your life directly.
It's OK to Get Out of your Comfort Zone. Understand that the only way to grow is to get outside of your comfort zone. If you're uncomfortable with an idea or situation because you're not sure how to act, that's good! That's an opportunity for growth.
Identify and Express Your Feelings. You may have a hard time figuring out exactly how you feel about someone that you're involved with. It's important that you do figure this out. Don't lead someone on with your ambivalence. If you determine that you value the person, tell them so every time you think of it. This is the best way to make them feel secure in your affections, and so to promote a long-lasting relationship.
Be Aware of Others. Try to really identify where people are coming from. Their ideas, thoughts and priorities are differents from yours. They have something to offer you. Try to identify their personality types.
Assume the Best. Don't distress yourself with fear and dark imaginings. Expect the best, and the best will come.

Istp is obviously my personality type ;D

2011-01-22T01:11:00.001+08:00

I feel dumb you know.
I mean Soh WeiXuan,
can't you just tell them the purpose of you doong it?

Your jealousy will kill you.

2011-01-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

If you remember, this is a blogskin I used before
Hah, but I don't think anyone would remember :D

I want to workkkkkkk, like seriously
This box is killing me D:
"Heyyo, my blog.
我很辛苦！
Can someone tell me what to do?
I neeeeeeeeed laughters
I neeeeeeeeed activities
I neeeeeeeeed to move around
I neeeeeeeeed to get out this fugly box
I neeeeeeeeed to be entertained

Fuck myself D;

其实我一直希望"
This post fits exactly to what I'm feeling now :S

2010-12-13T10:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it feels like we're just trying to hold it together
I hope that's not it, I believe it's not that [:
I'm paranoid because I care too much
Because I simply don't wish to lose you.

Whatever, things still must go on.
Maybe that's why I appear as happy go lucky [:

Working is fun, no doubt.
But still, it gives me problems.
I don't have time for myself, family and friends
Haven't went shopping ever since I started working.
Oh welllllll, why am I like that today?
Kuku me. :S

2010-12-12T01:31:00.002+08:00

Hihihieyyy! Blogging is difficult
because I simply have no time.
Tomorrow's the last day of the Level 1 fair
And Grace won't be there
Hope I can survive with my new partner. ;D
Teck Ghin won't be there to help too ];

Omg, the rain is scary :/

Andand today is 7th month together :D
I really hope we'd last
I hope we'll be like the old couple I saw :/

2010-12-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hihihihieyyyyyyy bloggggg!
I kind of miss blogging everyday
Just like how I did when I was P6 :D

Anywaysxzzszxzs, I got my first job
like after how many trillion years :/
And working isn't as fun as I always thought it was
Not that there's too little customers,
it's just that I feel do noob,
not being able to help them to my fullest.
I still quite like my customers.
They're nice and patient with me
And please please don't give me difficult ones :/

Tomorrow's my very first off day!
But I'm quite sure it'll be a lonely one.
Not that I'll be alone, but y'know y'know ];

Okay, I think I'm so lor sor :/
Byiesxszdsxss!

2010-11-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

I remember 4 years ago, I had this feeling too D;

I'm flying to Korea like in 8 hours time.
And I'm not at all excited :/
I don't like taking the aeroplane ];
And I know I'd miss B and my friends.
I hope I don't lose things overseas again.
I hope I don't get lost.
I hope there's wi-fi there.
I hope I'd get to at least email everyday.
I hope he'll do what he promised to.
I hope I don't dream to much.
And I hope I'd have so much fun, I forget to make him sneeze ;D

Byebye bloggg,
I'll visit eusxzxz whenn I've dhhe timeszszx ;D
HOHOHO!

2010-11-20T02:01:00.001+08:00

There's some problem with my blogskin.
I'll fix it when I've time :D

2010-11-05T23:12:00.001+08:00

Actually that wasn't what I really wanted.

2010-11-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

不知该怎么开始了解你 D;
我好害怕失去你,
所以紧握着你,从不放开.
让你喘不过气了吧?

2010-09-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hieyyyyyyy Blog.
Reading back, I realised I was a bitch D;
Childish and foolish.
I think I was dumb or something luh.
But sadly, I think I still am one D;

2010-09-08T21:19:00.003+08:00

Heyyyyoyyyyoyyyo ;D
I sort of miss the times I blog everyday
Aw, so sorry Blog, I've neglected you.
Since it's the holidays,
I shall keep you company for a while ;D
BUT I've nothing much to write, so Byebye Blog ;D

Find me my MOTEEEEVATION D;

2010-04-13T22:25:00.003+08:00

If you're not sure if you can fulfill it or not,
why in the first place you wan to promise us?
Do you think we're your toys?
You want us here, you put us here.
If not, just say, "I'll throw you there today?"
We got feeeeeeelings okay! Sorry for what shit?
So what if you're superior in power?
Means you can break promises?
We just want to give support, H.E.L.P.
They will help?
Ohyea, who made me not have a pellet box before shooting?
Who tried to blame it on us cos we don't have a bloody key?
Who made me near to tears just before shooting?
Suck!

2010-04-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

Heyyo, my blog.
我很辛苦！
Can someone tell me what to do?
I neeeeeeeeed laughters
I neeeeeeeeed activities
I neeeeeeeeed to move around
I neeeeeeeeed to get out this fugly box
I neeeeeeeeed to be entertained

Fuck myself D;

其实我一直希望

2009-08-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Fuuuuuuuckyiauol.

2009-07-20T23:36:00.001+08:00

Official Handwriting Analysis - Personality Report

This personality profile is based on the writing of Weixuan Soh created at the website: Handwriting Wizard.com - Handwriting University's Official automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through Handwriting University's Certification Level Program.

Weixuan uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Weixuan does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Weixuan will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Weixuan is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

Weixuan tends to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if Weixuan writes tiny all of the time, she will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. Weixuan will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties. she might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people. When she is busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away and her ability to focus is incredible. When she says "she didn't hear you", she really means, she didn't hear you.

Weixuan will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Weixuan has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. She fears ridicule, therefore she is careful not to place herself in a position to receive any ridicule. She wonders what people will think if she acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Weixuan may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a "positive attention getting" manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start.

In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

In reference to Weixuan's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Weixuan slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Weixuan can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Weixuan is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Weixuan basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Something is incomplete in Weixuan's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Weixuan's sexual needs.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Weixuan has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Weixuan fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Weixuan has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Weixuan seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Weixuan seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

Got this from Zhiyan's blog and I really think it's very true la. Help me away from my pasts! D:

2009-06-16T22:06:00.004+08:00

Heyyo! I'm damn bored I tell you.
I'm currently waiting for cousin to come home
No him, no motivation to do work.
I don't know why too.

I've done:
-Math online quizes
-Math paper
-Physics online quiz
-Heymath worksheet
-Chemistry worksheet
Good or no good?
But my definition of done &yours might differ
I take attempting all questions as done kay :D

2009-06-16T12:51:00.001+08:00

[This is supposed to be posted on 12/6 :x]
Oh, I said I'll be posting right?
&I think I've lost my readers, so
HERE I AM :D

Yea, about the camp.
One word: boring D:
Yes, because I don't know how to socialise
&maybe because I look fierce or something, do I ah?
Awyong thinks I'm an Ah Lian when she first saw me!
But I know if the camp lasts longer, I'll enjoy it.
Ohya, the toilets the suck
We're bathing &our foot are soaked in I-don't-clean-or-not water la.
Though, I look forward to indonesia outings if any :D

If you think fruitful holidays are spent doing homework,
mine is not fruitful at all.
I spent mine staring at the computer
I baked cookies although they're not really delicious
I cycled though I don't really know how
Oh, I had some CIP stuffs at Student Care with clique too

Training on thursday was totally crap
Luckily it's the last one, at least for the whole holidays.
Went to Student Care with Awyong and Peng after training
Drew some stuffs to show the teacher
She's afraid our plan will flop or something
Went to buy some stuff after that

Woke reluctantly yesterday morning.
I know I have a lot of reasons to cook up
But I still went for the training
Because I know I have to
Well, trained alone,
cos I was the only one that turn up for the second session
Ate with Maple &Yoke
Maple is damn nice I tell you,
She accompanied us till 4 when our training ended at 1plusplus
She could have just go home
But she's coaching us only until end of July D:

I must get going with my homework!
I've done:
-Math paper
-Math online quiz
-Physics online quiz
This list must grow with time!

&& Cousin's staying over for a week :D/D:?

2009-06-06T10:29:00.002+08:00

People imy, I imc la.
Miss cliiiique!
&I can't wait to go home.

2009-06-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyyy!
Just to say hello post before I go for camp
Clique, I'll miss y'all la, bcos I don't know any of them :x
Today's "course" was damn quiet okay D:
&happy new year to me, tomorrow is the 2nd day of my period
Hope nothing like today will happen :D
Blog after returning from camp :D :D

2009-05-27T21:53:00.002+08:00

Everything changed except Claud&I
Yes, even Maple &Ahkun D:
I really hate changes.
Return return! I want to cry, but I can't

Schooling seriously bores me to the edge of dying
Council investiture is boring :x
Poster designing suck
Training kills my passion for rifle.
Didn't shoot a bloody target at all
No lanes -.-
If it's in the past, it'll be a :D
Another freaking guy stole Maple away D:
Mood all dampened
Thanks ah, unreasonable guy.

I emo, I laugh, I cry, I scream, I curse
Yes, I'm this fucking bitch
I dislike people before understanding them
But prove that I'm wrong if you can, yes come.

2009-05-26T19:50:00.007+08:00

Went to Semakau Landfill

Yea, nice place luh

&I like the waters there!

There's different shades of blue one lei

&Sentosa the houses so nice la! I want :x

The Cruise was alright, didn't make me vomit

But, no doubts, upperdeck is much better

At least I didn't lie down or something

&the waters there

make me want to beach with clique even more!

Pictures

Johnny Boy's VIP seat

I realise I love waters, they're amazing, yes!

Sinyee, Pengpeng &I :D

Pulau Jong. Look like tortoise, I tell you

"EH! Don't take alr la, I angry liao la!"

Cute PINPIN :D

"Uhoh! I said something wrong, HOWHOW!"

So happy -.- Take photo only la :x

MengChen& Amelia

Daniel &Awyong

My hair go crazy :DD

Look at Xinyi!

Yan &Awyong

Pengpeng you smirk what?

Daniel! Twist Twist, Emo Emo?

Awyong, Yan, Shan&Pengpeng

Speed boat!

See the colour difference? It's raining on 1side! Cool la!

He act like Buddha

Group Photo in lower deck

Group photo near the waters! :D

I merely put words into ther mouths :D

2009-05-24T16:53:00.013+08:00

Saturday went for Math Trail
&stayed there to play with clique :D
I wanted to tan one la BUT NO SUN! D:
Though, I learnt how to cycle!
Like in a zigzag manner, then stop, heee
I want to cycle sooooooooooooon
Beach with clique soon uh!

Pictures:

Math Trail 1st prize. Giraffe lei!

Sinyee &I was learning how to cycle

Wash legs became water war!

"I block one hole!"

"Nah! I should block four!"

"Birdie~ Time to bathe you!"

"Clean already?"

"Aiya, I shy la. Sit down then talk to you"

Kaishan zilian!

Look how wet were we before going to beach

Look at the diferences in 3 of their expressions

Chio can!

I like this kind of sky :D

They took I-don't-know how long to look for Pengpeng's slipper

She insisted on us to take a photo for her

Zhiyan!

Sweet or sweet?

Nice luh! I take one lei :D

PINPIN!:DD

This is what I call cool :D

She kept saying she's only resting her eyes

Group photo :D:D

Yea, I really love them ♥

2009-05-22T21:01:00.005+08:00

6th consecutive post :DD

& I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO POST :D
I just don't want to break the consecutive-ness

Pictures :D

My sister bought me this lei! So cute :D

Look how sexily Awyong seats in the bus

Crazy Pair!

2009-05-21T19:20:00.001+08:00

Today is lousy day, yes, it is
just because I'm feeling lousy

Schooling is as baaaaaaaad!
We're only released like fucking 4.30 -.-
Oh, results again
Combined Humanities- 62.8
Mother Tongue -69
I damn kek xim I tell you.
One mark okay! But, whatever

Played ABCD with Aww, Piang &Kele
Yea, noob me, took 30++mins
&still remained at A postion?
Can shooting balls be taught? Teach me then
Went home with people with that lousy moood

What am I brooding over?

2009-05-20T20:34:00.004+08:00

Yea, 4th consecutive post :D

Clap clap clap*

Yea today is checking of papers again

I passed my English well :D

(in percentage too)

English- 57

Chem - 70

&my Emath is 76 now :D:D

School is still as boring

I sort of miss exam period okay :x

I'm not a freeeeaak.

But that means no lessons

&more time with clique cos we study together

Yea, whatever went for Math Trail shit

Then slack a while at Northpoint

&I took pictures &videos

but my phone fails to connect to the com!

My phone is still strugglig to survive la

I dropped it 5 times today, 1 single day! D:

Because I can't find my thumdrive, Greemothy drew this

Then I complaint too small &tadaaa. Lol

Oh &yes!

Sister pass her driving test when she only took it once

Dad took 4 times before passing. Laoya! :x

2009-05-19T20:45:00.003+08:00

Yea, the world's changing at least for me
Yea, damn it D:

2009-05-19T19:22:00.005+08:00

Before you realise, I should mention first
I've been posting for consecutive 3 days :D
Clap quick clap!

Was blog hopping for like 2++hours
stood up to on the lights
whatthehell, my brain spin like nobody's business
I think it's cos I'm too fat lo.

Yea the roller coaster was fun today.
(in percentage)
Biology- 80
Physics- 49.XX
Amath- 73
Emath- 78.XX
Yea, laugh all you want

Ate with clique, without Kaishan &Kele
We always never eat out together lo!
ONE DAY WE MUUUUUSSST!
&oh, the ice kachang we at today suck la 935 one :x

Tomorrow there's training D:
I seriously is not in the mood to train
Don't ask me why, cos I bloody do not know
maybe because I know it will be different
But hey, there's some math trail breifing tomorrow
So, maybe I can skip that training :D

Love, I'll stop here :D:D:D:D

2009-05-18T17:01:00.010+08:00

Went to Safra Yishun to bowl today
Yea, first time la
Though went there before, but I never play before la
Was late :x
I woke up early lo
Then very cold, I go back cover blanket, then sleep again :x

Played photo hunt &BishBashsomething
PhotoHunt is no fun can
I cannot see the difference one!
The BishBash thing very fun la :D
Will go crazy! Haha :D
Yunting is pro in that, not fair D:

I lost the funny photos la but well, I will get them back sooooon
Listen the video carefully. Last part, funny la!
AHHHH! I lost that video!
Oh my my my my!
Only I had that lei D:
Whatever, Piangpiang said something like
"Why this retarded PiangPiang ah, always do retarded stuff"
When she is Piang piang la. Lol.

Yeaps, pictures:

They look like candies la!

Ice-cube painting. I know is beautiful :D

Daniel refuse to leave Tsepin &he said

"I'm not sleeping on, I sleeping on the tiger paw~"

Damn cute la he.

Yanyan!

He always appear to be damn happy when he wins

Kanna snap!

The stupid resurfacing thing make us fall fall fall!

They fell like I-don't-know-how-many times together la

Clique :D without Sinyee D:

Group photo :DD

Talk talk talk~

Cute right? It's a plaster lei.

Clique again in the toilet

Timothy's damn damn pro la.

I kicked his crotchie &he's in pain. HAHAHAH!

This is how happy they were when they see their presents

Try to find us. In the reflection

2009-05-17T16:53:00.006+08:00

Hey! It's opened again :D
I'm just damnit lazy to reassemble my old blog codes
cos I'm not used to other people's codes luh
Heee, I know the colour is weird
but I dont's care blame it on my bad art skill or whatever

Thursday, had our looooooooong-planned haircut
To Zhiyan &I, it was alright luh
But because of that bloody woman,
Kaishan &Huimin kept complaining
Continued making Hadi's, Timo's &Tsepin's present after that

Friday, went ice-skating :D
Thought went for it once, it was like 1year++ ago
because I bloody got no brains
I totally don't know how to skate alr
Had lots of fun luh
Like really got the EXAMS ARE OVER MOOD
I love that day

Saturday, people came my house
YANYAN, PENGPENG, Awyong, Timo, Hadi, Tsepin &Daniel
Yea, Daniel. Rare la, haha
He was damn funny la
I remember him singing
"My spectacles in my pocket, right beside my testicles"
Okay, I take that as funny

Today, was rest day :x
Rotted at home but at least I didn't decompose like Pengpeng
I did ice cube painting too
I think very nice la
But troublesome
I shall post all the photos another day
the com bloody have something against me.

2009-04-19T21:06:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO CHANGE BLOGSKIN!
but I bloody got no time

2009-04-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

If only memories could turn into reality
Don't you think memories are always most beautiful?
Some said that's bcos we didn't know how to treasure
But, so what if I know how to?
It will still pass &we will still think back
Treasure at frist, then miss later?
No difference lo.

PS: Zhiyan, this does not only apply to my cca ho
Before Kimpeng don't like my blog anymore,
I just must post!

2009-04-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

&there it goes, their last training.

Heyyo, people.
I so think that I'm so not myself there days
&I don't know why.
Must be all the freaking tests.
Oh tests! 3good news :D
There's no geog test this week
&my physics 38/50 HAHAHAH!
But then I felt like wasting time yesterday lo
I spent don't know how long to think
At last those that I don't know, still wrong -.-
&I pass my A math 11/20 :D
It's damnit difficult can
Today actually have chemistry test
But postponed to tomorrow
Wait, see how stress I am?
I'm blogging all about tests!

Oh ya! Tomorrow sitting with my new partner!
It doesn't matter anyway since is Zhiyan
But Luisa is behind me la!
Just hope she won't suck all my oxygen away :x
Got to get use to that place ]:
I hate changes.

And went to the range again :D
Cutie and Fat was there to train
While Claud and I just go see see
We drew and wrote on the whiteboard
&Crazy around the whole of their training
&Maple just left without us!

Let's again hope I will catch some oxygen at my new seat :D

2009-04-06T22:09:00.005+08:00

MUM! WHY MUST THERE BE CHANGES!
I hate it when everything have been coming so naturally,
&I have to see a change in that. Damnit.

Today just isn't the day.
Recess didn't go down with clique cos I have to bloody study for physics
do my homework cos I need time to revise at home
I have 7 tests this week okay!
Ps: there's only 4 study days this week.
Actually arranged for physics test after school
but then Mr Wee change it to during lunch -.-
So I skipped lunch too lo
But I asked them to help me buy Hello Panda [:
(but it's okay, I have sufficient stored fats :D)
Though I only got to eat it after lessons, but thanks uh.
&Physics test is difficult to me lo
I want Physics tutor!

After school reaasembled my geog notes
They're in a big mess can
&I want to reassemble my SS notes! Wed got test lei.
Went to look for Claud &waited for weapons to get back in school
&Ahkun said he'll comeback lo
At last never. Left only Claud, Szexin and I to bring everything up
But thanks Zul &friend for helping out :D

Then slacked in the range
&Stupid Fat thing kept saying their last blahblah ]:
Make us sad only
Wait for his bus with Claud &went home D:

So what if you know how to cherish?

2009-04-05T10:58:00.001+08:00

I will miss all of them, seriously lot.
Imagine trainings without Szexin's help
Imagine trainings without Leon's crap
Imagine trainings without Cutie's adorable actions
Imagine trainings without Qurratu's aini
Imagine trainings without Kahyue's blur look
&later on trainings without Maple's huge grin
What will it be?
Imagine no dicks for me to kick while walking out of school.
No necessity to turn around in case Emople just walked off silently
No Cutie to shout goodbye while he leaves us.
No fat to pinch anymore.
No more ' frangrant' and 'craudia'
I hate to imagine that
&what's the purpose of training then?

2009-04-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

I'M DESPERATE FOR A HAIRCUT!
My hair is damn thick and disgusting, okay.

Yesterday, I was doing to chinese ppt la
Then damn tempted to play set society, so I played and do and played until 1plus.
&I'm damn tired this morning.
I'm the kind that must sleep a lot one la.
Bo bian, pig is like that.

Didn't go school yesterday
&I don't think I miss out a lot lei :x
Perhaps because yesterday was short
But I need to arrange time for spa, damnit.

OH YES! Happy April's Fool Day, before I forget.
Other class like so fun la, ours is so sian :
Tried to cheat Mdm Chan that we can't go in class cos it's lock.
But Alif, who was inside, unlocked and came out.
Hadi was like 'Amazing!'
Cos he was showing Mdm Chan his key can't unlock.
&Mum sent me this:
曾
经
我
也
这
么
傻
过
,
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
很
傻
的一直按到底,就这样在愚人节被愚弄了... 所以一定要找个更傻的出出气!!
呵呵呵呵呵呵呵祝傻傻的你愚人节快乐! (^^,)
要好自为之别再傻傻的遭人愚弄咯嘻嘻嘻嘻! (^_^)
To me it's useless cos my screen is big :D
&during lunch, Zhiyan tricked me say my hair got something
that she go and touch I thought is worm lo, whatthehell, damn scared
But she said she got tell me April's Fool.

Tomorrow, I'm reporting to Safra at 9 straight, jealous?

2009-03-25T23:50:00.005+08:00

If red is angry
If green is calm
If blue is down
If yellow is cheery

This is my colour:

&I feel like how one would if he had to paint something white using the same brush.

2009-03-07T17:25:00.015+08:00

A very quick photo posting :D
I'll next time if I've got the time, yea.

I took photo with giraffe lei!

Auntie Timothy with Sinyee's hairnet

This Claudia torture my shin chan!

My satay :D It's actually chopped cow's liver :x

Claudia's humongous chao da scalp

Passion for shooting ♥

Hadi lighted it and it go ..

When we're suppose to help Hadi launch the rocket :x

Zoom it, actually it's double rainbow la

He stole Huimin and my phone but I stole it back

but my strap still there. See how high he zip it?

He don't want let me take that he's wet la

Why he wet? Watch both videos.

2009-02-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

Heyyo people!
I was so high spirited just now luh
But mum come & kaypoh
&I'm so sure that she's undergoing menopause okay
1st, she's old
2nd, she scolds everything
3rd, she thinks she's boss of everyone
4th, all the wierd actions of her are revealing
&so on.
whatever, I shan't elaborate

Today, didn't go school early as told la
I reached at 7:23 :D
Then never sms Ms Tan luh
But she saw me luh
&so messy in the morning luh
I scared late, so I held onto my vocab list
grabbed the red bag, grabbed my phone,
my spectacles, bottle, shoes, socks & school bag
Then, at last I lost my vocab list ]:
Then got the prizes, which we've alr taken 3weeks ago -.-
Like nobody cheered lo, so paiseh

Today, was short
2 lessons then two tests
G& V test - flunk
Chem test -still alright
During G&V test I slept la
I don't know how to do luh
Then Ms Shameem shout softly -.-

12.30 left for prize presentation :D
That Claudia, see me, attack my innocent nehneh
Yup, our school won(for ntu invitational shoot):
Rifle Man Team 3rd
Rifle Women Team 1st
Rifle Women Individual 2nd :D
Be happy for us :D

I got things to post one
but forget it, my com dying.
Bye then :D

2009-02-22T21:09:00.009+08:00

Hilow, I'm here again.
Okay what I’m posting now had passed like weeks ago
So it’s okay if you don’t read them
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.
.

Actually wanted to post this before going for camp
But obviously I didn't make it to

I realise an easy way to blog often la - type in my phone first.
Using word mobile.
So I don't have to sit in front of the laptop
&type for hours, ending up forgetting what I wanted to write.
I can just copy and paste:D

Yup, went to school alone.
Mum, dad &sister went to the temple ma.
I first time go school alone other than a Wednesday la.
Suddenly I miss those times when sister splash water on my face, complaining to mum I'm not waking up.
Think back very funny lei.

Physics test quite okay.
But don't know what is vector scale luh.
Then ss damn sian luh.
Go through diagnostic test until I sleep.
I got 6/12 lei. Is 7 one lo, but she minus 1 cos I wrote too small
She also wrote that I never use dark ink pen when I wrote with black ink -.-
I don't like her la.

Chem test should be done as homework
Cos no time luh.
But next time, it'll be a more difficult one.

Oh, and we got our class tee and bandana.
Wasn't as nice as I thought and I think the bandana is -.- luh
Whatever as a class we'll wear it, yes we'll.
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Camp. Camp. Camp. Camp.
I miss camp like now alr la
Though the tents are -.-
And the food is damn oily,
The people we went through camp was nice luh.
Eh, of course la our class lei :x

Day1
Reached earlier to see people paint nails then reported
Got dad to send me my compass la
I thought need ma.
Then that Zhiyan keep give our instructor cheat la.
I don't how to spell his name so it shall be Larry
Zhiyan didn't know how to fill in the declaration of goods part for the white card
Then she asked Larry, Larry said you got anything? Nothing then tick no la.
Then Zhiyan tick liao
Larry said eh, your this one need to declare lei.' pointing at the bandana
'huh?' and she was damn blur. Very funny la.
Set off and everything reached custom but Joseph kenna detained la
His don't know what permit expire.
Waited like 2 hours plus? Hah, I don't know
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Haha I'm lazy to write about it maybe go somewhere that got write.
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Day 2
Classmates were supposed to sit on a humongous float
& then flow down with the river la
I didn’t play cos I helped them to push them off from big rocks la
I helped to splash them with water at them too :D
Then was the jetty jump, damn fun luh
Our class jumped twice in order to stay in there &take photo
But sadly, those having menses
&who were extremely extremely afraid of water didn’t join us
Then went to the waterfall too
It wasn’t at all a waterfall la
It looks more like a mini rapid to me luh
Had confidence nightwalk too
But you don’t have to bring your guts or whatsoever for that
Understand?

Day 3
Expedition to Gunung Panti
Interesting, fun &all but damn tiring
Somemore that morning we woke up early to transfer to resort
I got to climb up the 90 degree wall luh,
But sadly again, only about ½ the class went up ]:
Then was Campfire
Wasn’t as fun as P6’s
I slept after ¾ the performances, can imagine?
That day was tiring la, maybe cos I was I/C & the expedition
Then changed I/C and blablah, damn happy :D
Supper that day was strawberry bread
Oh my mama, I’d rather eat paper.
Then went back to sleep.
Cosy la, got air-con
But then slept only at 3plus
Cos I had to wait for everyone else to bathe
before I take my best camp bath
So then, I talked to the girls la.

Day 4
Go-Home Day ]:
I was so so reluctant la.
Though actually the activities are not veryvery interesting
But hey, when else can we spend such quality time with our class?
&we can get away from that boring, dead lessons lei
&trainings too
Sidetrack a while, I don’t love Rifle as much alr.
It used to be the whole of my life luh
But ya, not much passion alr
I’m just training for the sake of training, yes
Yup, but whatever, we still have to leave luh
Then took back phone &all
&got up the bus
15 girls was separated from our class la, so sad
But we got to sit in a better bus
Sit in, sleep at the moment
But later, the girls join us
All bcos their bus’ tyres burst, hahah
Went back to school &took photos with Patrick&Larry
I miss them la
The retard-ness of Larry
&the lame-ness of Patrick
I miss the times when Patrick pushes everything to Larry
&him limping to show he’s lame
I miss the times when Larry sings Birthday song to himself out of boredom
&I ‘tsst..’ at his stupid jokes &retard-ness
WHERE CAN I FIND THEM?
I want very much a reunion with them
I’ve yet to take a decent photo with them luh
But Jiayu told Kimpeng if they give us their contact
They’ll be sacked, how? :[

I think you can see their retard-ness alr

Natassja Babe &Patrick

(left>right) Patrick, Larry &Natassja Babe

(left>right) Kimpeng, Zhiyan, Kaishan, ME, Huimin, Sinyee

Larry & Patrick

Retard but cute Patrick

Candid shot of Darlyna, Larry& Patrick

Look how cute are they

Yunting with Larry& Patrick

Larry look my side lei

Retard Patrick!

Hysteric Amanda ;x

Patrick insisted to look at the camera that way

Larry wanted to delete this pic, look at his mouth

Look how kuku Patrick elbow me?

John, Yoke, ME, Larry& Patrick

haha, Patrick eyes, he said is part&parcel of art

John, Zhiyan, Larry &Patrick

Larry looked my side again [:

Natassja Babe, John, Darlyna, Larry &Patrick

Larry is cute la

Gay shot

Sinyee, Huimin, Larry &Patrick

Kaishan, Sinyee, Huimin, Larry &Patrick

Patrick Larry

I MISS THEM ]:

PS: Also thanks to everyone to have cooperated

&tolerated my shouts when I was I/C

You know I love y'all, heh :D

Don't dislike me or sort cos of that, I'll cry :x

2009-02-08T22:58:00.005+08:00

Quite long since I've updated.
Actually I don't think anybody would be seriously reading.
But anything luh, I'm writing so I can read back next time.

Yup, friday went back to cdans for training la.
I miss there, I love there &I want train there la.
Tanyeekan change what coach la.
What this victorlee do?
Send Maple to coach us when she only get 50 per training
while he's paid 25 per hour -.-
Is this what he call fair?
Ps: he don't even show his face to the school gate can.
Whatever. Back to cdans.
Oh, takeaway changed, got a lot of choices,
Though, no urge to eat there.
Ananas cafe changed, got seats now.
There's this bubble tea shop there, this fashion there.
See alr very sad.
That's not the place I'm familiar with alr
Yup, maybe Yoke, Yishiuan &Claud will understand
Anyway training was fine
Cos Szexin decided to compete with me a series, he owe me a drink[:
Merely cos he's sick luh

Yesterday's tpjcis got hit Maple's target luh.
The 365 thing. I got 368 [:
Well, got happy. But also not very happy.
I don't know why? Guess because Rifle's not all of me anymore ]:
& that victorlee said our school before saying his darling st. pats
when the organiser ask him what school he takes care of
sure is cos our school did better than st pats lo _l_

Today is homework day. damn sian
But I alot don't know how to/don't want to do
Just now wanted to borrow pe shorts from Jiaqi
& you know what! He have got 8 pairs!
But now 7 cos he's giving me one ;D
So next time want borrow, from him haha :x

orange-me
'That Jiaqi ho, he got 6 pe shorts lei'
'For what?' &she gave me the what-the-hell face
'He need to wear everyday ma'
'Training?'
'No la, he scared he zao geng'
'Ask him wear boxers over underwear la'
'You believe what I say?' then I laughed damn loudly
'Laugh, laugh laugh! I pee on you uh!'
Then I scream & scream until she back off
Damn funny la.
ps: I was squatting &she's standing so she of course can pee on me la
&yes I shall stop here. Long post today la
Love, goodnight :D

Jonathan's damn cute right? No? Slap you uh.

2009-01-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

Urgh, I'm so lazy &packed to post
but yes, I must keep this alive
at least the posting part

CNY holidays just over but it isn't very fun
Went to only ahma &grand-aunt's house luh
I'm only gambling &eating -.-
damn sian

&class flag is done alr you know?
Like how finally but ya, I think it's chio luh

Today got back E math paper - 11/30
I'm quite happy with it
cos I'm only completely done with 1 question
I think &wish A math paper tomorrow would be easier

Oh &tomorrow should be discussing about class idendtity
I really hope suspenders would be 'approved' luh
I'm selfish, I want it b'cos I don't fucking like bandana
It would be so plain & it's 2dollars -.-
But yes, I will go with the class one.

3Feb Camp briefing lei, I'm so anxious.
I want packing list la
I don't want forget bring stuff again ]:
I must pack at least 1 week before
Yes, my goal :D

watched Love Matters, it's quite nice &funny
but The Wedding Game is boring. booo

2009-01-13T21:48:00.004+08:00

Yay! 3 consecutive posts!
I'm so great right, yes I am [:

Oh before I forget, I must mention
I came across this person that's crazy over ichigo too!
Oh, is Ichigo so nice to be fanatic over?
I'm so sian about him after Sinyee's-everday-blabber
&&Jiaqi said my skin is nice know?
Haha, means it's nice.

Ms Goh very long never catch me liao lo
Today's stupid skirt, caught the eye of Ms Goh &Ms Kong
Haiya, naughty skirt
Yup &I'm not supposed to wear the skirt anymore
I shall do as they say uh.
But I only got 2 skirts if don't wear todays skirt lei
I don't want new skirts cos the colour will be different?
Is there anyway you can wear 2 skirts for 5 days?
I wash my skirt everyday.

Yup, Ms Tan say socks too.
forget is Kong, Goh or Tan said I'll throw 3/7's face lo
Hey please, must all 3/7 students be out of disciplinary stuff
&at the same time cope well with their studies?
I will go mad with all hairs standing la!

Hair! I cut my hair la :D
I think is the first time I never complain after cutting
cos I cut thinner and more layers only
Trimmed abit of ends &fringe
But ya, sorry Yoke for not helping in doing up Rifle board
Sister booked the time alr ma, very sorry okay?

Szexin asked me to ask someone else to spread message of training matters
Fing Karen will make me vomit blood, how can I believe she'd do spread?
So I suggested Luisa
But I just got to know that she never spread! Urgh
Luckily Ahkun asked about training la

Oh, &thanks those whom have done up the Rifle board?
Till here, bye ♥

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Yup I'm here again just to share this.

My Name: Soh Wei Xuan
There are 10 letters in your name.Those 10 letters total to 49There are 5 vowels and 5 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.
The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.
The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.
If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6
A Soul Urge number of 6 means: With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.
The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.
If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7
An Inner Dream number of 7 means: You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

This is from http://www.paulsadowski.com la
But for mine is so not true lei
I don't think I'm organised actually
Try it? Really byebye liao :D

2009-01-12T22:40:00.002+08:00

Heh, 2 consecutive posts.
Achievement know.

Had geog after english
& many of us forgotten our stuff for geog/ss la
have to 'entertain' the class
That Ms Chiang wants us to sing for the class
Only thing we can think of is of course Happy Birthday luh
Then sang it for Mrs Tan though it wasn't her birthday
We just assume it is.

Had free periods cos Ms Tan have to go for the O'level thing
then discussed about class identity
I want hannah la, very nice lei.
But ya, no class spirit, many objections ]:
Did up class notice boards too.
Now it feels a little more like a class.

Went to bring up Rifle stuff up to range
I carry 5 suits and bottom lei
I thought there's only 4 la
Carry until I want die uh
Maple and SzeXin quarreled over setting goals or not la
They very funny la

Went to eat &buy stuff with Ahkun and Claud
&you know what? Ahkun wants us to pei him home la
We girls, He guy lei
So funny lo
But to 弥补his 创伤 Claud &I sent him a quater-way
Then we walked away
He demanded for us to pei him la
Super funny.
Yep, till here [:

2009-01-11T20:30:00.007+08:00

I'm back.
Ugh, I'm tired with saying 'I'm back'
Life is boring for me, so blogging is tough.

Well let's start with my blogskin
Don't you think is nice?
It is luh. Is from the song Pictures of you
But ya, linked it to those yesterdays we've had
I appreciate time given by people around me
Yes, I really do.
Thanks people :D

Yesterday was monthly shoot la
was late &first time w/o Szexin and people la
then very blur, don't know what to do
then we ran and walk like siao kias luh.
we even missed our prep time la
have to use our shooting time to dry fire
Was shit when I shot, millions of 8s
then got 7s la
sort of gave up cos I knew it'll be bad ma
but surprising got 364 in the end
Is either they count wrong or I cockeye lo

After that went to find my mama &cousin
Then mama want me to try on a super long dress la
but m is really to big ma
then I asked for s
the lady was like 'what? s?' kind of look la
Yes I know I'm fat
but please, your clothes are meant for fatties like me
& even the s is too big can
Stupid ending for the day.

2008-12-12T19:43:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so bad today
rotted at home ]:
I don't know what to post, but I just want to do so

End today quickly la
Bye, lol.
Oh and add my msn weixuan.nie@gmail.com
It's finally working after changing acc
Which I really don't want very much
Thanks:D

2008-11-07T18:57:00.005+08:00

Today, I'm only here to finsh a long wanted quiz by Kaishan
So nothing much :x
1. Do you have secrets?
Yes? Everybody sure have?
2.Would you fall in love with a guy older than you?
Definitely.
3.Do you enjoy going to sch?
Yes and No. I don't know. Perhaps when there's no lessons :D
4.What would you do with a billion dollars?
ENJOY [:
5.Will you fall in love with your best friend's state?
Isn't it suppose to be stead? Ok, maybe :x Ah, I'm evil.
6.Do you encourage having boyfriend/girlfriend at the age below 18?
Uhm, if can handle well? Don't die attached friends
7.What is the thing that you desire?
Uhm, SHOOT WELL!
8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Shut up first, wait till he ask or they break. I'm really evil.
9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Should have? Bird brain contains nothing
10. What makes you angry?
You shitting on my face -.-
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
A female.
12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
That one that one and that one too.
13.What is the most important thing in life?
Living years.
14.What is more important? Family or friends?
Can don't choose? I don't like making decisions.
15. What is your favorite color?
Orange :D
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Most, I guess. But very stupid?
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one I'm more comfortable with?
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
No, I'm petty.
19. What do you want to tell the person whom you like?
Just shut up and wait for him to act la. I'm not like desperate for him.
So do you know more about me alr? :D

2008-10-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH
I'm so mad cos of my msn la!
what errors errors
bird brain la me
whatever -

yup, wednesday had training
only thing I remember is I shot like -.-
shoot cock know? ]:
& also got back other results
English- 52
Chinese- 64
History- 60
I'm quite satisfied with my Chinese actually
cos my Chinese is bad?
and my letter writing only got 2/20
I'm really wondering if I can get in 3/6 lo

thursday watched 20th century boys
I think is nice lei
but YiQian &people thought it's a waste
I want watch part 2![:

today is sian luh.
went out after waking up, for lunch
then came home, blog hopped
cos I still can't sign in my msn! D:
Actually wanted to send the people going Shandong
but at last, didn't feel like
but still thanks to papa for wanting to drive me home
I don't have a thing to blog anymore lei.

Oh, who is nice enough?
help me find a orange&black neckstrap lei!
I WANT MY MSN!
all because of my bird brain -.-

2008-10-14T19:00:00.002+08:00

WHYWHYWHY why like that?
my results suck, &I can't sign in my msn -.-
I can't sign in my cbox, I can't sign in my hotmail
my phone is silent &it's killing me D:
and right now the sadsad song is playing

Today go school give SinYee &YiQian laugh
cos I'm dozing off during silent reading, lol?
I'm always super sleepy after the eoys

checked three papers:
Geog- 61
Math- 86
Science- 78
Maybe to you it's alright, but I expected more
I know I'm demanding
cos 20plus marks was left blank for science &geog la
but still very sad lo!

then stayed for lunch &chat very a while
then went home
actually want to sign in msn, hotmail &blablah
&then all can't!
My bird brain, I don't know what fills it ok
I forgot all those passwords
&actually I got save my password in msn lo
then I don't why they say it's not right
since I'm back, till now, I'm still trying to get in
I'm stupid, but I super don't want to lose that msn la
prepare to add my new-msn-to-be ]:

sister &mama want me to join for dinner
but I don't feel like
I think I'll sure give black face
eh, I stop here la

&tag me, thanks.
there's training tomorrow, smile? ]:

2008-09-04T15:51:00.002+08:00

Everytime I post, I'll say I'm back.
So this time it's the same la.

But sadly, I got nothing to post :x
I'm rotting at home these two days
And I'm having a flu -.-
all because I didn't see the Sun
Vey impressively, Sun will cure my illness

Dad came home &cooked laksa just now
&I think flu got better
cos I sweat
[: eyes look so disgusting while posting

&later I'll be alone at home, loner ]:
&I'm fast know, I'm left with letter writing &heymath only
byebye
:D

2008-07-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

halo, I'm back again [;
today super scared I would be late
can someone tell me what time then is considered late?
I thought is 7.20 lei
but today reach school about 7.23
but I'm not late lei.
thank God can.

was super restless during lessons
but I still pay attention
all because I slept at 1 [x
then after school alot things.
meet YongQing, meet JiaQi, SzeXin
meet MsTan for keys
but you know what?
I looked for Ms Tan for 10 to 15 minutes
and she was in the range alr -.-

there was Sec 1 training la
and went to take care of them
never really talked to them because it was a big group
pistol boys were there also.
they very should I say unfortunate?
they shoot black cards alr lei
they very fast lei, compared to us la.

then went home with JiaQi and people
I sat in the train till Bishan with Kungfu Panda coach lei
he talked to me
though I don't know him can say at all
but he got endless things to say

ohk, ohk, I shall go and sleep very soon [:

2008-07-13T21:53:00.002+08:00

eh, I shall apologise first.
I'm sorry that I don't update my blog frequently
but I've already said don't expect me to blog often

ohk, today woke up super early for tuition
then at last no tuition!
sian, then watch tv but fell asleep I think
and I did my art la.
It's so horrible.
I dread to take it out, it's that ugly
then went to popular to but pen.
actually wanted to buy more pens to give people
but I can't find the pen!
I hope they're going to sell it the next time I'm there.

went home then went out for dinner with Dad
but they said it was horrible, but to me it's alr lei[x
oh and tomorrow I shall bring my new bag [:

Byebye!

2008-06-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

I'M BAAACK!
ohk, I don't think there's anyone reading.

I'm laaaate today!
ohk, I'm not angry or sad or anything.
cos It's my own fault what.
see, I so sensible [x
I thought is by 7.30 la
then I slowly tie my hair.
is like so messy la.
and I think I too long never wear uniform
then I think I look weird with my super long skirt.

when I reach school they were singing the national anthem le
so, ya stand until it finishes.
then TaoLong ask us to stand there.
very paiseh lei, I was like .. can do go?
but well, I skip the check.
good thing is I won't get caught
but bad thing is I might get caught tomorrow.

then chinese class -.-
do NA paper. I think it's difficult lo.
then I kept sleeping I very tired la.
but I still managed to finish the paper.
Nabilah change seat alr ]:
she go until behind behind la.

&YiShiuan Claudia YokeLeng and I are in C girls team!
KunYan ShanYan ChuHui and Kenneth are in C boys team!
hee. we're great right [:
the thing is tomorrow onwards, everyday training]:

2008-06-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
I'm here again!

went to somerset in the morning.
met Vivien for shepherding.
and she ate Long John breakfast.
the french toast's syrup took her 15 minutes to open
then ya, she shua me lo.
shepherding was about outreach
then she ask me to take her as non- believer
&tell her the story
then I draw nice nice alr.
she say,"redraw, you also never tell me what is it about hahah"
ugh, then drew all over again with explanations la

&then went to meet the others for prayer meet.
and I think songs today were nice la.
but I only remembered uhm, this blog song hee[:
say it's NICE ohk! [x
and today is Pastor Jeff
I think he very cute la ;o
oh, &today alot people converted lei!
happy? happy la-.-
ahh. I'm like a moron.

after service suppose to go home
&do my homework
but mom asked me to go somerset with her.
&THANK GOD I went to Meridian with Vivien they all
if not I don't know what will happen.
I guess I'll see mom there lo.
cos I told her I went for training soo.., ya

then I train from Dhoby to Bishan &bought fries
&go back Somerset [x
to like drag time? cos I suppose to be a Bukit Gombak ma
and ya shopped with mom but wasn't fruitful for me.
well I shall stop, byebye!

2008-06-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
after like how many years?
I'm finally back [x
ohk, I apologise first.
uhm, I shall say, don't think that I will post often
but I will really try.
uhm, want to have the habit to keep this blog alive, I hope.

yesyes, I shall start posting.
I went to training today. very usual.
oh, holiday's killing me ohk.
only got project, homework and trainings.
but I'm quite happy with my shooting today [:
I got 3 consecutive 45+points cardsafter shooting 1 card
eh, meaning 45+/50 la.
but is pure luck.
YokeLeng didn't come for training cos of her injury.
rest well at home, don't have to brood over it [:
and after I and YiShiuan shoot, we were supposee to go for a break
&go back for dry fire again but didn't la.
we slacked at the lobby with Leon &SzeXin.
then went to eat and all.
nothing much then.

&I won't link anyone cos I'm purely lazy [x
I don't know many people too.
&I'm looking foward for service tomorrow.

2008-01-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

heh. yesterday didn't manage to post this.

went to school quite late.

brisk walked to class took the form give father sign

cos don't have must go home fetch it

and give tcher on that day.

and you know where I live uh.

then went up again thought my book was there

but ZhiYan took it alr -.-

I think she was tried to tell she took it but I didn't see.

then was Mrs Eu lesson.

I hate her can. I also don't know why.

after recess was HomeEcons.

the DnT students tcher was that Ong Guang Wei

then he came in our class but nobody greeted him

then he lectured for fuck damn long -.-

Chinese teacher wasn't here and relief tcher came.

she very funny la.

"你们老师没有来，可是有功课。"

“After the lesson, 你们要教给我啊！"

she speaks singlish to us la.

she treats us like friends like that

she summarise the compre passage in English for us

cos the passage was too chim for us

can't understand a little.

after that self-study.

went around for classmates no.s

I always do that.

cos can contact them if needed?

and I till then still don't know their names ma

then can sun bian(:

then ate with KimPeng and people.

and called YokeLeng to pei me

cos I don't want go out of school alone.

all of them have CCAs.

went to CC.

cos YokeLeng want ask them smthing

about the scholarship she got.

she's a smart la.

then went Popular buy things

then headed Mcdonald's

I saw Yasser lo.

he grew lot lots. he is so tall can. goodness

slacked there for quite sometime

talked about how we treated YiYin in the past.

went to 9XX.

pei her see hamsters cos her class's getting a pet.

all of them are cute la.

touched the rabbit. and it's so soft.

sort of afraid of them all xD

cos I'm rough and might hurt them. lol.

don't dare to touch the hamsters and guinea pigs.

went to another shop.

they sold hamsters at half the price of the ones in the first stall -.-

YokeLeng grabbed the hamster out

and wanted me to carry it but I'm afraid so siam

the hamster pooped on YokeLeng's hand too :D

went to the library searched for books regarding hamsters

and actually they aren't that easy to take care of.

went home after that.

and bathed and slept
just felt so tired after the days in school

woke only at 2plusplus.

hamster drinking water.

guinea pigs.

this one has damn curly hair.

don't it look like it has eyeliner?

look where it pooped.

YokeLeng I said I would post it(:

anyway this is on Friday.

2008-01-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

well, didn't post yesterday cos wasn't free.
busy with hmwork and all. it's flooding me la.

tday went to school early a little. chiong geog.
but didn't finish too.
did them during the science lesson.
Ms Pou didn't say anything even seeing me doing it.
I think he only want us to pay attention?
don't need keep looking at her ba. -shrugs-

Geog lesson, Mrs Tan asked if we did the assesment.
I was the only one who didn't do xD so paiseh la.
though someone else would never do too.
then she ask me stand aside. as me go canteen do.
went up, asked her about physical and human environment.
she told me and ask how MsChong teach us one.
she's quite nice, only tcher I like(:

and when to YiQian hse to do hols assignment.
but good girl, me, finished most of them except Geog.
helped them with it. and went hme darkly :/
and now I'm trying to find information on the Geog thing):

well, actually no that .. too